Wednesday, January 14, 2009

life 2.0

So I obviously am no champion at the blog game such as my sister Monica (your rock btw) and sadly it's not because there's nothing in my life worth writing about. It's actually quite the opposite, mylife has been frazzled, busy, and more frazzled in the past months. I never realized how difficult it is to balance two completely different personas, halfs, beings, whatever you want to call it until I began to take my transition to the next stage. While exciting, I constantly felt torn to either be myself or be the person that my contemporaries, fans, anyone else that knew 'me'. So often would I get the 'grow your beard back' talk by my fellow DJs,because sadly that had become os strongly attatched to my image of the DJ I am. It didn't and hasn't wound down to what you hear, but who you see. Needless to say, I'm stuck and I feel trapped, and need an outlet, friend, resource, something or someone that can relate to me and my constantly evolviong situation or just give me an insight...I don't typically depend on others in this gravity because I've always been a very autonomous person, I just don't think it will work this time.. :\

Zoe

5 comments:

Monica Roberts said...

Champion at the blog game? Girl please. :)

Zoe, what your experiencing from your fellow male DJs is them cutting you out of the male bonding circle because your a girl now.

Getting through this stage will also take more strength that you ever thought you had, but have it you do and find it you will.

Then again, you can always hit me on my e-mail if you need to if you need a sympathetic ear.

Your in cocoon stage right now little butterfly. You'll soon be able to burst through, spread you wings and fly.

Zoe Renee said...

Thank you so much Monica, and I would def love to take you up on that email offer please and thank you :)

Monica Roberts said...

Done...

jackie said...

ciao zoe,i am an italian pre op translady,i passed just to say hallo,to give my best wishes for your life in a simply and statisfactions way..have nice days,see you and kisses.your sincerely jackie;)
Ps:if you want,you will find me at trans.splinder.com just to say ciao,even if my blog is in italiano you can leave a comment also without a account..

Ineffabelle said...

I feel all of this big time.
I hope things have gotten better since you posted this.